Whoa Is Me! More Snow!!

Here's a picture I took from the upstairs balcony/veranda. It's been sprinkling snow all day long. There shouldn't be too much accumulation, but the Weather Network is calling for 4 inches on Friday overnight to Saturday, sigh. Why on the weekend??? That gives motivation for the snowmobilers to come up north!!! It'll be another hibernation weekend I think...hmmm...maybe I'll sit and watch my basil grow lol...

I'm having egg issues too...not like other homesteaders who are gathering so many fresh eggs that they don't know what to do with them!!! But I think I may have overbought...yes, I did! I've already frozen a few dozen and I still have two more than need to be eaten in the next two weeks, so I'll be baking a lot and making egg dishes. I made a double-decker egg salad sandwich for Alex's lunch yesterday. I forgot to take a picture, but I made myself an egg white scramble with tomatoes and Parm. No dinner pics today, we had the leftover Crunchwraps!

I got my book order yesterday! :) I've already started reading the Anti-Anxiety book and there is a LOT in there...my gosh. It might take me reading it a few times over to process all of the food information relating to different conditions of the mind.

I also got this new gardening book. It's so much easier to read than Eliot Coleman's "Four Season Harvest" which I have to admit, I'm having a hard time getting through right now...but that could be that my mind is focusing on healing the anxiety. The author of this new book, Niki Jabbour, is from Halifax, so she's a Canuck and she writes very well, lots of explanations of each crop and how it relates to each season for the garden. I browsed through it last night and can't wait to get more into it! I'll still read Eliot Coleman's, it'll give me a few different perspectives and suggestions.

Anyone up for a baking challenge this weekend? After my horror story about the burned Cheese Nips in yesterday's post, Sam I Am mentioned that there has to be a way to make them at home; and I found a recipe that I did actually use once: Homemade Cheeze-Its. I looked back at my photos and I made them last November. I served them with homemade tomato soup and I couldn't remember why I didn't make them again. Alex thinks it's because they were really "flour-y", which makes sense because I kind of remember the dough being very sticky so I might have used more flour in the rolling and cutting. Plus I didn't have cookie cutters back then, just my dog bone-shaped ones...I have more now though so I can make them smaller. If you look at the website though, hers look perfect...I don't know that I can achieve that! But I'm up for the challenge. I have some Cheddar that ain't doin' nothin' so I'm going to do this sometime over the next four days!

Roast Beef and Rainbow Trout

This is Oscar. See how cute he is? He's trying to keep his toes warm on my heating pad that was incubating my latest batch of yogurt. Oh he's cute, I had to get a photo...an hour later I could have rung his neck because he was so into the heating pad that he knocked over the yogurt, grrrrr! Such a clatter...I did actually spring from my bed to see what was the matter! How did I not see that one coming??

After my initial "Oh My God OSCAR!!!!" squeal...he ran upstairs to hide next to Charlie. Aw, I can't stay mad at any of them. I managed to salvage some of it, but it didn't really set very well. Pets...

I made Alex some of that Beef Jerky that he loves so much. I'm not sure what happened, but it dried out so quickly this time that we had to re-marinate it and let it dry again. I hope my dehydrator isn't on the fritz because I always get the same cut of meat and use the same drying time. At least we salvaged that too! A day of food-rescue!!!

For dinner I made Alex a roast beef. I wanted to use the Brussels Sprouts that I'd bought on shopping day, they lasted a very long time in the fridge. I just cooked them in a pan with butter and salt and with a baked potato, Alex loved it! I'm not a beef-eater anymore because of my digestion, sadly because this looked and smelled so good! I found a simple method online for the beef. Just salt, pepper and Dijon mustard rubbed and then baked 25 minutes a pound for medium. How do you make your roast beef? I was trying to get the similar scent and taste of my grandmother's old Sunday dinner roast! I think I succeeded!

For me, I had a nice piece of Rainbow trout with a Chardonnay butter sauce (wine, butter and onions, that's it!). The first few bites were divine, but as I kept eating, I didn't really enjoy it, which kind of surprised me. I'm a fish lover, but I found the Rainbow to be really intensely strong in flavour. I got turned off salmon for the same reason, when years ago I used to eat it a few times a week...I hope my taste buds aren't shifting!

Another Chapter of the "Not Surprising" Files:

Some of you may remember I wrote about a box of Premium Plus crackers that Alex bought for me when I had food poisoning. I mentioned that one of the sleeves of crackers was all burned. Well, at the beginning of March, I did get a coupon from the company as a result of complaining. I used it to buy a box of Cheese Nips the other day, Alex loves them but we buy them rarely because they're not good for us. Check this out:

BURNED CRACKERS AGAIN!!! I've had it. I wrote again to the company saying I felt like I wasted my coupon on these burned Cheese Nips. No quality control. And I'll bet I simply get another coupon in the mail with no care about how mediocre the product is. Every day I get more and more examples of poor products and it really motivates me to become as self-sufficient as I can be. Crazy!

We Have Basil !!! Crunchwraps and an Ice Storm

Look! I planted my basil indoors on the first day of spring and today I got the first sign of life! This makes me so happy on a very dull Monday. I feel like I'm gardening lol!

We had an ice storm overnight. This kind of weather makes me uneasy because we often lose power when things get very icy and heavy like this. But so far the power lines are holding strong; and the lilac tree is holding its own too. The ice on the little twigs look almost silver.

The bird feeder is frozen solid! I tried to break it up a little for the birds today but I kept slipping on the ice below so I figure I'll wait a day then fill it up again!

Some critter found their way to the feeder though, likely one of the hundreds of feral cats in this area. We saw some prints coming out of our shed too. The shed is a useless structure but we knew that when we signed the lease a few years back. The landlord was honest and said he had no intention of fixing it or replacing it when the times comes. We never use it, though it would come in handy. The door is kind of stuck ajar and the feral cats use it, which I'm thankful for, because I have so much pity for them when the -30 C weather hits. So let's go to my favourite subject: FOOD!

I don't know why but we've been so into Mexican-style food lately. I was watching a video on how to make a homemade version of Taco Bell's Crunchwrap Supreme. It looked rather easy and really delicious so we gave it a try. Alex did most of the cooking and preparing since my energy was still a little low by the time we started to get hungry. Oh my gosh! This meal was SO GOOD. We had fun garnishing them for the pictures too :) Here's the play by play:

These Crunchwraps were really delicious! When I saw the video a few months ago, I noted to myself that I should try to find extra-large tortillas. But I couldn't find them, so we made a few mini ones. I've never been to Taco Bell, we didn't have them here in Quebec until recently I believe, but from what I've seen, the wraps are supposed to be the size of the inside of my dinner plate when they're all bundled up and ready for the frying pan. I'll have to keep an eye out for larger tortillas because we will be making this again! Another thing is that we broke apart some taco shells in lieu of the round corn "tostada" that the original recipe called for. It seems that corn tostadas don't exist around here at all, same concept as the taco shell though, just not as pretty! :)

Look at the innards of this thing! :) And we have plenty of leftovers for a lunch or another dinner. Yum yum yum! Because the crunchwrap was browned and warm to eat, it didn't bother me so much that my "freshly" bought crappy head of $3.49 lettuce was wilted a little...it came that way to begin with, but I pretended it was just due to the cooking. :)

Daily Routines

This is last night's moon. I'm surprised the photo turned out so nice because I used my phone! So far with all of my efforts, I've been anxiety attack-free going on three days. I don't want to start counting, because that will add pressure to me I'm sure, go figure, my mind and body do what they want sometimes! So far my efforts are working! What relaxes me the most is a 20-minute meditation before dinner. I'm developing a good routine and I'm so happy it's helping me!

Speaking of dinner, this is a familiar sight, Chicken Cesar Salad. We love this meal, but sometimes I wish I had better ideas for salads. It's hard to eat salad in the winter what with the produce so expensive and icky-looking, so we only have it a few times a month and it's always the same meal. I downloaded a few salad cookbooks to try to move beyond the Chicken Cesar! It'll be more cost-effective in the summer to eat more fresh lettuce and vegetables so I have time to prepare!

Two more pizzas are in the freezer! I made bacon and cheese pizzas yesterday. So far I've only made basic pizzas for the freezer, but the last time we had them, we both liked them better than fresh. I think it's because the dough ends up cooking crispier. I have a nice fig and prosciutto pizza planned and a four cheese for next week...maybe I'll try freezing them and seeing how they hold up!

The dogs are all eating bones and I'm going to get back to my anti-anxiety routine! Are you a creature of habit like me or do you need to be more spontaneous?

A Walk In The Snowy Woods

Yesterday's snow didn't stop us from taking the dogs out together. We found a solution - hopefully - for being able to walk the dogs (and us!) safely. If we drive maybe 3 minutes to the other side of the river, there is a quiet area with snowmobile trails. There are four houses in that area and one of the streets has no houses and no traffic. We wouldn't go there on weekends, too dangerous with the snowmobiles, but during the week we can go. We just parked the car on the side of the road and went into the woods. Driving to walk kind of feels like defeating the purpose doesn't it? But just a three minute drive helps us avoid the main area of the village where all the problem dogs are, we felt a lot safer and less stressed about having them out with us. Here I am with my little man Jack. It was mild enough that he didn't need his booties. :)

Alex always takes the girls. The trail was so wonderful, it was snowing and quiet, no motors running, no loud tourists yelling...and lots of rabbit tracks for the dogs to sniff and enjoy! Our walk was about half an hour yesterday. This is an area we can go to often. I went in there a lot last summer, so I think we found our spot! I hope!

I'm still trying to find my energy though. Anxiety is debilitating and just that half hour walk in the woods winded me. Thank you frozen pizzas! :) The pizzas I froze a few weeks back were the perfect solution for dinner! I have to make a few more today.

We stopped by the mail boxes on the way home and look! Another cookbook for me! I'm spoiled. :) Alex says, yes he spoils me, but he also benefits so it's a win-win situation lol...This is a great cookbook for little appetizers, I can't wait to try some!

It's Saturday morning and this is the backyard. Freshly fallen snow and the sun is out! I'm starting to feel that hope again that everything will be okay and I can conquer my anxiety!

I had no attacks yesterday so I'm really feeling great today. There is a flower remedy called Rescue Remedy. I took that years ago and it helped with panic a lot. I started using it about 3 weeks ago, and Alex mentioned that it was around that time when the attacks got continually worse. I didn't have any Rescue Remedy yesterday, nor any attacks...coincidence? I'm not going to take it anymore so we'll see. I also added a B-Complex to my mornings and I'm now up to 45 minutes on the mini-trampoline, jogging away each morning. 

The photos look so serene, but the reality is this: It's the weekend. Last night when we took the dogs out before bed, all we could hear was a giggling-gaggle-of-girls partying next door. We're guessing the parents let the kids have the place for the weekend, ick. And until 3am we heard some kind of snowmobile race going on, it's so annoying. But that's just me venting. One more day and then we have our quiet home and village again for another five days! 

Time for some real pet pride:

Blue-Eyed Marlene

Happy Jack

Leo and Charlie - Leo WANTS to be taller!

I love this photo of Leo and Charlie...it's so cute. I'm SO proud of the dogs today. I must sing the praises of the DREMEL for filing doggie nails. I decided on a whim to try filing their nails again this morning. I was a bit worried that Jack might start his aggression and growling again but I was very surprised! FIVE MINUTES later, all three dogs were done!!!!! The huskies laid back on their sides while I filed their nails - I guess the girls enjoyed the pedicure, I would too :)... and Jack is my biggest source of pride today. He let me file his nails with only a little grumbling and NO MUZZLE. I never thought that trimming their nails would be a pleasure, I couldn't stop giving them treats after lol...anyone with dogs who wants to save some money and make the task easier, seriously, try it! I'm very excited about this because I've been trimming dog nails since 1995 and I seriously never looked forward to it...I wish I'd tried the Dremel sooner! I feel like a spokesperson lol...but this has saved me so much stress too. 

Chili Night!

Last night was chili night! I made my Slow Cooker Chili and it was great comfort food with some tortilla chips to dip with!

I woke up to more snow today! Boo hoo hoo hoo...it's such an eye opener how badly my mood is affected by the March weather. I mean, I know I have some form of Seasonal Affective Disorder because I have terrible cabin fever and low moods after January until about April. I'm quite sure that once I can be outdoors most of the day, things will get better. Ever notice that colour seems to disappear during a winter snowstorm?

I won't go into detail, but lately my anxiety disorder has been slightly out of control, so I'm trying something new. I ordered this book today and I hope it offers something to help me. I already know some foods that trigger the anxiety, like processed sugars and processed foods, high sodium and too much caffeine; and I avoid them. But maybe adding some new foods daily will help too, or just changing something up...I'm open to trying new things :)

I'm happy to say that I have Alex's support 100%. He wants to help me feel better too, it feels good to know I can rely on him. I used to go through these hard times alone and now I just have to go to him for all the hugs I want. Jack too :)

I was looking through my summer photos this morning and I CAN'T WAIT to have this hot sunny weather again!

I do love all of our seasons here, but winter always feels too long for me. How do you get through winter? Is it as tough on you as it is on me? I'm trying to find ways to enjoy it more, but I'm stumped right now! Grin and bear it. :)

It's National Puppy Day!

What a great excuse to showcase photos of Jack :) Look at that big mouth lol...I often wonder if he could fit a soccer ball in there...a year ago we would never have been able to get that ball out of his mouth, now he drops it with a little grumble. He's come so far!

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Because of my day-long nap yesterday I got nothing at all done. I guess that's okay once in a while! We had leftover Coq Au Vin last night and watched Moonshiners in bed until midnight when I drifted into my night-long nap lol...But today I have the chili in the slow cooker, the laundry is being done, the dogs had playtime with the balls and I want to paint, but don't feel my creativity, I hope it comes back soon. Hope everyone has a nice day, post about your dogs! :))